What a difference a week makes. Last Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday I was holding my breath every time the phone rang. My mind was not engaged in many things that I was doing. Last Wednesday I grocery shopped, Target shopped, emptied and cleaned the refrigerator, emptied and cleaned the cupboards, sorted and shredded mail…
and then they called.
I got a job!
They called around 3:30 Wednesday afternoon – which isn’t “early in the week” to me, which is when they said they’d make the decision, but I’m not complaning! I’m just glad they called! So I have a lot of paperwork to fill out and a health screen and drug screen to complete and then I’ll start work January 30!
So now I feel like I can look ahead to 2012 and make lists or set some goals or do some planning! Already, amid all the celebrating, I have tackled a big messy closet and made some sense of it – something my mom would have done in her first week of unemployment, instead of one of her last!
It just feels so different to NOT have job searching hanging over my head. Such a relief! The first thing I did on Thursday was to file away all of my job searching notes and resources! I should look back at it and check the number of jobs I applied for and the number that I actually heard anything back from. That was a little surprising to me. It is such a technological world with no people contact in many cases.
The whole thing has been another learning experience for me.
I learned, once again, that it is ok to accept help and support from friends and family. It is very humbling. I am so thankful that I have such wonderful friends and family, because it wasn’t that long ago that I was learning the same lessons for a different reason! Hopefully I can return the favors!
I learned that it’s possible to go a whole day without talking to anyone. Sometimes I would have to put on some music I could sing to, just to warm up my voice!
I learned that I can easily live without cable television but I cannot live without internet. You can watch a lot of television on the computer! And I love revisiting the movies I own!
I learned that if I read fewer blogs I’d read more books.
I learned that lots of people liked to come up with job ideas for me – and very rarely were the ideas anything that I would want or like to do. I guess I like to think for myself.
I learned that many things are easier said than done. The signature of my email for years has been: “Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity.” -Gilda Radner. Turns out, it isn’t easy to relish ambiguity. 🙂 But I think I kept a pretty good attitude throughout, treasuring each day as it came.
I learned that having faith – in God and yourself – really helps when you’re dealing with ambiguity and big changes. That, and good family and friends, gets you through anything!
I learned that even with lots of time on my hands, I still don’t make time to exercise! Yikes… I need a workout pal!
I know there were more lessons, but I’ll end it for now. I’m sure I’ll also learn more about myself as I start this new adventure! The job I am moving into is going to be a big change from what I did before and will be a big challenge, but I am so excited for the opportunity in this next phase of my life.
Maybe I’ll blog about that learning curve another time. 🙂 First, I’ll try to put into words some goals for 2012. But for now…
And the days go by… and the blogging doesn’t happen! Well, maybe 22 days isn’t too bad of a lag, but I think it is. Mid-May was a very busy time, as “Take Note!”, the choir I am in, had a lot of rehearsals and performances over an 8 day span, with busy weekends and weeknights before. It was a great time. The third time I sang “Please, Mr. Postman” I really nailed it. I should have front-loaded that work rather than being in panic mode. But panic mode usually works for me, so c’est la vie! I’ve had quite a bit of time off (for me) and haven’t been cranking through the books too much but have read a few.
I got official and final word Tuesday night / Wednesday that my position at work is being cut due to budget reasons, so the last five or six weeks I have been in crisis mode mentally. I’m so “in my head,” as I call it. Introverted. Immersing myself in meaningless tasks. Choosing audiobooks or podcasts over live conversations. These last few days at work will be difficult – it’s hard to say goodbye over and over again – so I am looking forward to it being behind me. June 7 can’t get here fast enough. And all of this brings to point something I learned about myself after the flood – I really can only do one big thing at a time. I couldn’t look for a new house until I sold my old house and had actually signed the papers. Likewise, I can’t focus as much as I should on looking for a new job until this job is wrapped up. So although I am going to pretend that I will do some serious job searching and applying tomorrow, most likely I will find some putzy jobs to do and then learn more about my rights through the union. Hopefully soon I’ll be ‘normal’ again. Ha.
But I have finished a few books since I last wrote. I am half done with “Hotel on the Corner of Bitter and Sweet” and really liking it. It’s quite easy to read, which is unexpected. I thought it would be heavier, but maybe I’m just not there yet. I hopefully will finish that soon. I finished listening to “Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix” (see above comments about immersing myself in audiobooks) and was amazed at how much I don’t remember from reading the book! But it was nine years ago that the book came out, so that’s a long time. I’m sure I’ll remember less about book six and I already know that I remember very little about book seven (it was the last book I read before my house flooded and something changed in my brain that day and that book disappeared – along with a little sanity!). I am pretty sure I’ll reach the goal of reading the books before July 19 so that is exciting!
And I also finished my very first e-book loaned from the library! I checked out one book, just any old book I could get, as most had a waiting list, and I didn’t like it. I couldn’t tell if it was the book I didn’t like or the e-book that I didn’t like. So I waited and finally got one I wanted to read (“Twenties Girl” by Sophie Kinsella) – a light and fun romp – and I ripped right through it! It was easy to read and a good, fun book. The 14 day loan period from the library is a little pressure, so hopefully the others will come spaced out good enough for me to not panic! I read the book in less than three days, but I had to stop reading “Hotel…” which I didn’t like to do.
And so I ramble. I must blog more so that I don’t have quite so much to say! Yikes! I’ll just update my “Spring Thing Reading List” below and be off to read!